Realizing who I am

Over the years, I have had a number of boyfriends. Each one vastly different from the last, and each one teaching me something along the way. It is only now, that I am with my current boyfriend, that I'm starting to learn how to be myself. With my ex's, let's call them S and J, …

Book Man

Story Time: The other day I went to Chapters to buy some books for a class I'm taking next semester. Being an avid Chapters client, I quickly went to the search engine and started trying to figure out which section to go to. The store manager, an older fellow asked if I needed help and …

Under pressure.

Sometimes you're sitting in your room. You know what you need to do and you know how much time it'll take to do it. So you tell yourself "I'll do it today" or "I'll do it tomorrow" but you already know you won't. Not because you don't want to, even though you don't. And not …

The walls are closing in…

Every so often, I lay in my coffin, The walls close in, as I lay within, closer and tighter, darker not brighter, I feel held in its arms, It rings no alarms, I drift to sleep as I'm buried deep.

I’ve never fit in

Growing up, I never fit in the way everyone else did, When we played team sports, I was always the last bid. That extra player that neither team wanted or needed, Captains would willing trade me, it was that deep seeded. It wasn't that I was bad at sports or anything like that, I was …

tell me.

Tell me something you think about at 2a.m. when your eyes refuse to stay closed and your mind is racing.

Life is a little crazy

My life has been a little crazy these days with all of the things I have going on. I work 14.5 hours at one job per week, around 30 hours per week at the other, plus I'm a university student taking 5 courses and I recently started dating this guy. All my nights are late …

He says…

He says the words over and over, as though we're slow and can't understand, this very basic content, the situations that are at hand.

It’s just a Wednesday

It's not raining or snowing, Still the leaves are not growing, The air is crisp in an uncomfortable way, But where we live, it's just a normal day. The sidewalks are sleek with ice, The sun shines down, which is nice, It's a Wednesday, so just a dull day, where we force ourselves to walk …

wrong but so right

I can feel the energy vibrating in through my arms My cells setting off alarms I can't even begin to describe how it makes me come alive It allows me to focus and strive I know that it's wrong and I honestly don't even care As long as it's only as needed, rare. I'm not …