Over the years, I have had a number of boyfriends. Each one vastly different from the last, and each one teaching me something along the way. It is only now, that I am with my current boyfriend, that I'm starting to learn how to be myself. With my ex's, let's call them S and J, … Continue reading Realizing who I am
Story Time: The other day I went to Chapters to buy some books for a class I'm taking next semester. Being an avid Chapters client, I quickly went to the search engine and started trying to figure out which section to go to. The store manager, an older fellow asked if I needed help and … Continue reading Book Man
Sometimes you're sitting in your room. You know what you need to do and you know how much time it'll take to do it. So you tell yourself "I'll do it today" or "I'll do it tomorrow" but you already know you won't. Not because you don't want to, even though you don't. And not … Continue reading Under pressure.
Every so often, I lay in my coffin, The walls close in, as I lay within, closer and tighter, darker not brighter, I feel held in its arms, It rings no alarms, I drift to sleep as I'm buried deep.
Love is patient, love is kind, I'm going to be clingy, do you mind? Roses are red, violets are blue, I just want to be with you.
So I brought my boyfriend to meet my family this past weekend. I spent the whole time trying to pretend, that I wasn't uncomfortable and neither was he, with the awkward conversations of my family. We came late and left early but still felt it was too long, For years I've struggled to fit … Continue reading It’s been a while…
Every relationship has doubts. You enter into this agreement to be with a person and suddenly you realize it's not everything you expected. Maybe it doesn't feel like it should and maybe you start to get irritated by their little quirks. These doubts come from our expectations and cloud our bigger picture. I could be … Continue reading Doubt
Growing up, I never fit in the way everyone else did, When we played team sports, I was always the last bid. That extra player that neither team wanted or needed, Captains would willing trade me, it was that deep seeded. It wasn't that I was bad at sports or anything like that, I was … Continue reading I’ve never fit in
Tell me something you think about at 2a.m. when your eyes refuse to stay closed and your mind is racing.
I didn't toss and I didn't turn, My eyes fell closed like lead doors would. I'm sure I laid still and stiff, As a child almost does, as surely only a log could. The hours of the day had been long Tedious, they drew longer than they should, But the day over, I was fine, … Continue reading Sleep feels good.