Over the years, I have had a number of boyfriends. Each one vastly different from the last, and each one teaching me something along the way. It is only now, that I am with my current boyfriend, that I'm starting to learn how to be myself. With my ex's, let's call them S and J, … Continue reading Realizing who I am
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He’s seeing it all
He's very careful with me, as though I'd be broken easily, He kisses my forehead and eyes, I smile as I realize, that he isn't like anyone I've ever known, and it's not a game, everything has shown, I know he's a weirdo and he's done a lot on his own, But I know neither … Continue reading He’s seeing it all
The End
So there's this guy. I write about him quite lovingly on this blog, as you may have noticed. What you may not know though is that he isn't really mine. I got to experience pieces of him at convenient times. I felt his embrace but never his love. Today, marks the end if what little … Continue reading The End
A Little Bit of Heart
Recently I did something stupid, we will talk about it later in the post but it landed me in the hospital. It was by laying in that hospital bed that I realized that the person I wanted sitting next to me wasn't a parent, guardian or family member. It was a close friend of mine. As … Continue reading A Little Bit of Heart
How to be happy
I think it's clear through my writing that I am often times unhappy with life. It's strange when I think about how I am feeling because I live an exceptionally normal life. I live with roommates, I go to university, I go to work, sometimes I meet up with family, I hang out with friends, etc. … Continue reading How to be happy
Something new but not yet true
He doesn't make me feel like I'm flying He doesn't leave me breathless, sighing. He doesn't make me want to fall into his arms Doesn't ring a bell or any alarms. Because at the end of the day he isn't you I don't feel half as much and nothing true I don't want to message … Continue reading Something new but not yet true
You’re just broken baby…
I guess I just don't understand People say they want the future in their hand That they are searching for forever But keep throwing themselves wherever What's the point in stirring the pot In having relations that absolutely will not Help you find what you are looking for While your friends joke that you're a … Continue reading You’re just broken baby…
How I look at him
I wish he loved me. I wish he could look into my eyes and see me as so much more than he does. When I look into his blue eyes I feel like I'm miles away. And I can tell him that I don't love him and I'm happy he's happy. But it's a lie … Continue reading How I look at him
Panic?
So today I was asked to print some training documents at work. My boss wanted them in colour, on card stock and double sided. So I'm printing them out and I notice that the first page isn't in colour. Because this isn't a colour printer! Shit! Stop Stop Stop. Buttom mashing leads me to accidently … Continue reading Panic?
Making it Official
So the other day I was laying in bed with my BOYFRIEND and he asked me what I was thinking. See typically I use that question as a means to get him to tell me what he's thinking about or to start a conversation with him but I also like to use it to my advantage … Continue reading Making it Official