Just keep trying

So I have been really working on diet and exercise for the last 6 weeks or so. It's hard and I just wanna eat an ice cream sundae and a bag of chips. But hey, I'm trying and slowly seeing progress. Trying is a huge part of success. Just try your best 🙂  

Realizing who I am

Over the years, I have had a number of boyfriends. Each one vastly different from the last, and each one teaching me something along the way. It is only now, that I am with my current boyfriend, that I'm starting to learn how to be myself. With my ex's, let's call them S and J, …

He’s seeing it all

He's very careful with me, as though I'd be broken easily, He kisses my forehead and eyes, I smile as I realize, that he isn't like anyone I've ever known, and it's not a game, everything has shown, I know he's a weirdo and he's done a lot on his own, But I know neither …

No means no

"It wasn't that bad" he said. As he tore himself from my bed. My body was raw and sore, because he kept insisting on more. I had let tears roll down my face, but still he kept at pace. "It's not rape" he declared. Claiming that I had been prepared, When I said yes an …

The End

So there's this guy. I write about him quite lovingly on this blog, as you may have noticed. What you may not know though is that he isn't really mine. I got to experience pieces of him at convenient times. I felt his embrace but never his love. Today, marks the end if what little …

Crazy and I know it

So recently, I've been doing something crazy. I can't tell you what it is because some people I know read this and they would think I was losing my grip. Anyway, I feel an adrenaline rush every time I test the boundaries. I feel like I'm putting it all on the line and I feel …

The manifestations of my anxiety

Every so often, I'll be sitting in my room and have this uncontrollable need to organize something. This feeling is usually intensified if I have a lot on my mind or if I feel considerably overwhelmed. In the homes of friends this can manifest into a need to help wash dishes and set the table, …

A Little Bit of Heart

Recently I did something stupid, we will talk about it later in the post but it landed me in the hospital. It was by laying in that hospital bed that I realized that the person I wanted sitting next to me wasn't a parent, guardian or family member. It was a close friend of mine. As …

How to be happy

I think it's clear through my writing that I am often times unhappy with life. It's strange when I think about how I am feeling because I live an exceptionally normal life. I live with roommates, I go to university, I go to work, sometimes I meet up with family, I hang out with friends, etc. …

Lilacs

When I was a little kid, the house that I lived in had a lilac tree out front. It blossomed every year and always left you smiling when you walked out the front door. It became my favorite flower and remains so to this day. Recently, within the last year, I moved to a new …